Inhuman.

She said, some days i feel like shit
somedays i wanna quit, and just be normal for a bit
i don't understand why you have to always feel so long, and
I find myself tryin' to stay by the phone
'Cause your voice always helps me to not feel so alone
But when i pick up I don't have much to say, so
I want to know it's a little me fuck up
that i'm stuck here waitn', at times debain'
Tellin' you that I've had it with you and your career
Me and the rest of the family her sing Where'd you go?

Its ironic when you get your hopes up so high and it comes crashing down faster then how you'll ever expect it to. No one really cares, sometimes I just can't get that into my head. There's school tomorrow. Again. My life seems to be trapped in this box, its suffocating me, but I still gotta find ways to survive. I don't want to do the same things I do everyday, wake up, go to school, wait for time to pass. That's exactly what's happening in my life now, and it's beyong boring. Its actually extremely exasperating to me. I just want to cope myself somewhere once in awhile and actually think, what is all these for, what's the meaning of life anyway. And again, there are times I just fantasize to work in a barn or what not, having cute piglets and pigs, cows, sheep, horses. Best yet, they'll always be there for you, not judging, no opinions, and they actually want you ,and that's kinda what I need most. I miss the simplicities of life, those innocent moments, the times when your parents actually cared more about you rather than themselves. They cared more of your well being rather than results. My nose died today, i blew and blew and blew I think my nose works better than the wolf in red riding hood. And following that, i rubbed it with horrid quality tissues, and for the record, i applied tons of Vicks vapourrub? And killed my nose by introducing a burning sensation so unbearable, i just wanted to faint. So thank you vaccinations for your epic side effects. Went Melanie's house to crash, and went home. Oh did I mention I got my report book back. Well, no one really cares anyway. So I shall glue my eyes to gossip girl.