Your traces that my heart is filled with
Makes me able to breathe
When the long night is colored by the moonlight
Will the inescapable wait all end?
I wish for a miracle and ask and answer myself

Oh, I can’t tell you about me
Who wants to reach your heart
Like the starlight hidden behind the cold clouds
I love you, in the end, this painful confession
That lingers at the edge of my lips slide down in tears

Shinee - Quasimodo

Exams are over, finally. Somehow, after being friggin over the moon for afew hours, I feel nothing but emptiness inside me. Well, its great to get away from that military school for awhile, I mean, it's been such a bore and it was disgusting just to be in that school. Facing those teachers who doesn't have the least sense of how miserable we feel thanks to all their new implementations of weird, totally out of the extraordinary horrid scheme to make us good citizens. My fucking ass, seriously. Maybe finally the consequences of not studying for exams are hitting me, I know I'm not gonna get good grades. I've been far too lazy. But I really did study for this examinations this time, I rejected the urge to use comp, and to actually get a book, hide in the room and study. But seriously when I flunk this time, I'll know that studying comes to no good end. I've given my best, or so i thought, but the pure fruits of labor are nothing but junk. And when your best equals to nothing, absolutely nothing. What will come of all these in the end, getting good grades, getting great jobs. Where's all the happiness in life gone to? Time's being wasted on computers and books, all the dead things, I needa get out of this box and actually live a life. Dont give a damn of what others think of you, a bitch a slut, liar. Attention seeking bastard, seriously, life's not about just making the people around you happy, you gotta make yourself happy too sometimes. You know what, I'm just real depressed after listening to quasimodo and reading on a confession of someone who just accepted Christ as her savior. When will I ever be ready to let my heart out to trust in him. Trusting in someone you have not seen and have no way to prove, isn't that the biggest trust you can give. I wonder what would come tomorrow, I just can't stand the sight of seeing anything related to you. & I'm real sleepy. I need story books to read, now.

Take me away

to somewhere far away

where the lands are lost

where souls are forgiven.